Right now, every little things makes me feel like crying.
i hope i don't die.

Fine those pictures were toooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
big! So it had to come off. Eh, but i guess i'll write it down.

my heart is for you to break or bury, or wear as jewellery whichever you prefer.

My hopes are so high your kiss might kill me, so wont you kill me? So i die
happy.

I feel like i'm losing my social life.
And i think spending $70 at coffee bean is, OMG!




I was bored/stressed/annoyed/pissed/tired/upset/infatuated/aggravated/misjudged/lonely/quiet and etc. so you get that.
Not that i started cutting again. But i just wrote some stuff. Good if you can read.
Too bad if you can't.
But yeah. I wrote it man! But my handwrititing sucks like shit.

Miss Goh is leaving. I'm so sad. When Kong announced she was leaving i wanted to cry!!
Then just now in the cab i decided to text Miss Goh since i forgot to look for her. ( also cos i was rather upset ) She replied my text and i cried in the cab home. The driver thought i was nuts. I'm gonna miss, Miss Goh a lot ok! Sigh, i shouldn't talk about it cos i'll become sadder. But i'm like happy now. so yeah.

I'M HAPPY!
see my, MYSPACE for details!

Man, How am i gonna make it thru the day full up to 2. Sigh.
btw. I still find maria sharapova's," passion for fashion. Oooh! That rhymes!" funny. If you saw it too. You'd agree with me!
shite, i feel itchy every where!

What a beautiful smile,
could i stay for awhile?

I didn't go to school.
I'm here to blog again. :)
Myskina beat Muller 6-2, 6-1!
Hantuchova is about to beat Jackson.
The score is 6-3, 4-4. 15-30
She's gonna win no worries!
Anyway, i saw a footage of her crying. Prolly from last year :)

Wake up in the afternoon.

I'm so sad. I shouldn't have deleted all those messages even if i changed my phone. Cos i still got the phone back. How mega retarded. I deleted all my messages and i kept some messages in some lame file that has people like Yimei. Jillian and isabelle. So that's mega retarded. I think i shall go cry now bye.

you sure could have held mine. :)

Happy birthday Sveta! Great win against Oprandi! I hope that's a good Birthday present.
<3 Sveta! :D All the best at Wimby!

IF YOU THINK ANYTHING ON THIS BLOG IS ABOUT YOU. yes, you the one reading this.
IT'S NOT UNLESS YOU'RE NAME IS STATED THERE. SO LIKE BUGGER OFF AND STUFF. AND I DON'T NEED PEOPLE TELLING ME WHAT I CAN SAY AND WHAT I CANNOT SAY ON MY BLOG. IT'S NOT LIKE I'M STUPID. SO LIKE FUCK OFF IF NOTHING REFERS TO YOU.
DON'T FUCKING PISS ME OFF COS I'M NOT HAVING A GOOD DAY AND IMMA GONNA TAKE IT OUT ON ANYONE WHO PISSES THE SHIT OUTTA ME. FUCK THAT IF-YOU'RE-HAVING-A-BAD-DAY-DON'T-TAKE-IT-OUT-ON-OTHERS-NONSENSE.

I have an addiction problem.
I am addicted to you.
One life to live,
so make this one count.

Ahyerrrrrrrrrrr. _ is not straight. That's what i found out on SYF. She asked me are you straight? I was like, DUH! Then she was like, how ya'll like guys huh? Can like meh? I wanted to slap her!! Like Duh! We are supposed to like guys and not girls. It's queer.
Hoe geeeez.

leave the stage

OMG. i had syf today. I'm burnt. I only got back to school at 8pm. Wonderful.
I decided to be a moron. I became a pathetic loser to become jacked back.
Wonderful.
I don't want to write anything because i forgot what i wanted to write in the first place.
Great great.
Ugh, <3.

I feel intoxicated. I had a tiramisu which has tooooo much alcohol. Ugh.
UGH!

I'm so sad. I read the wikipedia info on Clemence again and i realized she has had a boyfriend for 7 fucking years and his name is Emrik. Perfect.
Oh, and she doesn'thave a French accent. So perfect.

You know, i feel like slapping someone. Although she's my friend. But then again. I don't feel like it. Because the other person is 1800-i-think-i-am-the-man!

You don't say things that you don't mean.
Example, you don't say I will love you forever/ i want be with you forever.
Because, First of all. There is no such thing as forever. You're gonna die in like 80 years. That ain't forever. That's just 8 decades.
Secondly, You're fucking 16. You don't want to be stuck with your first for like eternity? If that's even possible.
Thirdly, You become responsible for what you say. I know i seem to be promoting irresponsibilty and the irony is i hate irresponsible people. ( prolly myself included )
Whenever things don't go smooth. The other person finds the loophole and tries to figure out how to turn it around in order to "win." If you get what i'm saying. It's just not right to say things like that. Even if you feel like it's gonna happen at that moment. Just those words; Becomes a commitment.

Sometimes i don't understand why, When it fucking hurts you keep droning and droning about it. I mean, yeah. But you have to have a certain limit. Ok maybe not. cos it is your blog and i can't do anything about. But you say all these and you act another way. It's being AA. And really, it's like tryna get sympathy. You've got so much sympathy and yet you act a whole other way. I just wish you fucking get over it and just start your life afresh. Don't be pathetic in hanging on. It's really stupid. The girl fucking doesnt want you anymore. If you did understand, you'd prolly left a long time ago. Sparing the hurt and pride.

I'm watching simple life.

yesterday was cool. Noting the fact it's past 12. So yeah.
Anyway, i played badminton.
I woke up late. I woke up at 12. My match was at 1pm
So i just brushed my teeth and went out.
I managed to get that at 12.40.
I only played at 2.
I played ok. Judging from the fact that i am not good in the first place.
Saw Caryn, Priscilla and Anne!
Priscilla is soooooooooooo cool. I wanna be like her. I bet she thought i was retarded
She's opening up a lot. She's no longer so quiet and angry.
She's happy. She smiles when we talk to her and she doesnt just say 3 words.
She's says a full sentence. That's nice. :D She's nice.
Caryn is 1800-Retarded-shiat! AHAH.
She's mega funny. She's uber cute as well.
HAHAHA.
so yeah, i guess that's how my day went.

I wanted to say something else. But it's not affecting me or anything anymore.
Oh yeah, i wanted to say that
PCD IS FUCKING HOT!
NELLY FURTADO IS FUCKING HOT!
& CLEMENCE POESY IS FUCKING HOT! ( dig the tits! hahaha! )

I think PCD is fucking hot.
:)
Nelly Furtado too!
and of course Clemence. :)

Hello, i'm back from KL.
Things that i remember:
Day1.
I ate lunch at HARTZ CHICKEN BUFFET. was fucking cheap. 14RM you eat all you want. Like all the food KFC provides and MORE. So yeah. We ate like fucking a lot and i was having my menses and it was fucking bad.
Day2.
We went to the theme park. It's fucking good. The theme park is like on the 5th floor. and the roller coaster goes up to the 8th floor or 9th. Fucking high la. Was so fucking good. I was the only one who wanted the sit the roller coaster. so i went alone. Then after that because they realized i would survive then they decided to sit as well. I sat 4 times!! there was like 3 or 4 inversions. hella cool!
The spinning thang was fucking fun as well. we sat so many times. like SO MANY. so yeah. we played bumper cars. my leg kena and the bruise is fucking big. It's fucking swollen too. So yeah.
that's all la.
Uhm. the dna mixer was crap. and that all.
Day3.
I'm home.

So yup. I guess that's all. ta.

My sister thinks i'm obsessed with CLEMENCE POESY. actually, i am. :D
She's left handed!
& i'm looking for clarity pang!

I FEEL SO CHEATED! CLEMENCE POESY DOESN'T HAVE A FRENCH ACCENT! NOT AT ALL! SHE HAS A PERFECT ENGLISH ACCENT.
btw, she's super sexy when she's speaking french. purrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

I guess, i screwed up my orals. I don't think i did very well. I felt like crap. My throat was super mega sore even since saturday. Tsk. Valerie Koh said i wasn't very forth-coming. I guess so. I wasn't really up to it.
I'm just feeling so sluggish. I sleep late. I wake up late. I'm having my period. I'm wearing some fucking bad which gives me abrasions which fucking hurts. So shut up! I can't find a comfortable one. And the one i found comfortable last month. That F one, it's the one which gave my abrasions. I say it's the wings.
Ugh, I'm going to KL in like, 5 hours. I don't feel like going. I want to play at RGPS. I guess, i'm quite screwed. I'm so indecisive. I'm fucked up. I want to go.
I wanna spend money. I want that phone. My mum says she'd get it for me. But everytime she doesn't. I just feel so ACK. and i don't have a reason to demand for that phone whatsoever. I have crap results. I misplaced my report book, AGAIN. So brilliant.
Tomorrow is gonna be a beautiful day. Oh wait, it already is tomorrow and i have 6 mozzie bites on my left hand. Wow. It's gonna be a magnificent day tomorrow. I can already feel the rain pouring.
Give me a Sampoerna you fuckers.
We used to be friends, Dandy Warhols. It's self-explanatory. Goes out to, they know themselves.
Bet they like this song. UgH. iMmA aH lIaNzXzX.
I'm the shiznit yo. Fucktards. Me and my homies are gonna bust your ass yo! And you ain't gonna do anything bout it know why, I'm the shiznit yo.
Fuck, Blogging by the side of the bed is cramping my neck.
Ugh, i'm just digressing here.
Tingxi has cute hair. And i like it a lot. purrrrr. ;)
I think Joanne is weird. hrm hrm per dmmm!
I think Clemence Poesy in mega fucking hot and i dig her tits/*teats ( *so Miss Seah/Mrs. Lok says )
archerlly, she makes me horny. ;)
So do other hot shizzzzzzzzzz. But she's new. So i guess after awhile it will go away.
I went thru at least 75 URLs to see the "fake" Emma watson. It drove me mega mad.
It was sort of fruitful. I think she's hot.
FLEUR AND HERMIONE IS DA SHIZZZZZZZZZZZZ. ( how do i put it in french? )
Yeah, bless them Gauloise and Marlboro ciggs their real-life characters smokes.
I wanna try ya know. But they just suck. David Doff sucks. Makes my throat feels so HORATIO! ( that's a name, i dont even know why i'm using that to describe )
I WANT A TEACHER TO READ MY BLOG.
Sigh. I guess i express myself better on blogs. Cos i dont have to say it out. but sometimes i still lie to myself. ( won't go further in )
I'm so sad......................................................................... Words can't explain therefore the dots.
I WANT TO BE A CELEBRITY. I WANNA BE FAMOUS. I WANNA ACT. actually i don't want to act. I hate acting. I love criticizing. I wanna be a brazillian waxer. ;) I wanna be a really rich person. I wanna own 2 clubs. which i really intend on fulfilling. But it won't hold me a stable income. therefore i have to work to get those 2 shizzzzzz. I wanna be successful, I want gossip to appear bout me so i can deny about the facts.
I wanna be nicole richie thin. I try to do what she does. I try not to eat. But i can't, it's like fucking food. I try ta smoke. But i can't, i just cant stand it. It's driving me insane. Plus i've got mummy and daddy. They care so much about me. I can't do that to them. But what's the point. i'm already the annoying failure. I'm the resident useless-motherfucker-who-thinks-so-fucking-highly-of-it's-motherfucking-self.
Hmmmm. i wanna die like Karen Carpenter. A bag of bones. I wanna die happy. but skinny. It will make me feel good. Ugh, i wanna be thin. Thin shizzz is cool shizzzz. then maybe people might like me. This is so sad. Nobody loves me.
Kinda weird, but i really crush Miss Seah. :( So sad. so sad. so sad. So super sad. I dreamt about her. No naughty stuff! but funny stuff. she had uber thick brows like BROW! or steve. sigh.
I crush Miss Goh toooooo! I crush anybody purrrrrrrrrrrr-ty! Yes Samantha Chia as well!
Liwei thinks Celeste Chen is hot! That makes me feel grossed out. I like her body. But she's not hot.
Krystal thinks i used to crush on Yimei cos she had a huge ass. but i don't like ass. That's why i don't like Serena Williams and Mariah Carey and the sorts...
I'm seriously DIGRESSING!
Man, imma gonna miss Miss Goh when she leaves. So sad. So sad. I miss my OC Dvd. I lent 1 persona and it went allover. I'm sad. I can't lend my stuff to other people. I bet the cover looks so motherfucking old that i don't want it anymore. Man this is depressing. I'm not gonna lend my stuff to other people any more! THE O.C.!! ALEX FUCKING HOT KELLY!!!! MARISSA SUPER HOT COOPER!!!!! :( I'M SAD. i love the 2 of them. I wish they were together forever and they'd fuck day and night like that person's fanfiction.
And I WISH FLEUR DELACOUR AND HERMIONE GRANGER WOULD BE TOGETHER LIKE VermillionRED's Fanfiction.
I just sent a text message to Ravinder asking about MOMO. i missed it man! I missed it! But fuck it, i've no money so i shan't go.
I want a sampoerna. But when my throat clears. It's bad man. Fucking bad. I should go drink some alcohol to drown my sorrows. Wait, I don't even like alcohol. yuck. I like ciggs. Man, I dream about ciggs everyday. The last time i had a cigg was so long ago. I bet you guys hate me cos i'm an obsessed git.
Great. We are great friends.
To sum it up.
GWEN IS A CIGG-CLEMENCE POESY-FLEUR DELACOUR-EMMA WATSON-HERMIONE GRANGER-LESBIAN-WOMEN-SEX-VULGARITY-DIGRESSING-ETC-ETC-OBSSESSED FAT CHICK.
godbless.

You are my Rock & Roll Queen.
Why do i say this?
You rock and you rolled.
That's if you get what i mean.

Sigh, That sickening breaking free song is soooo sad.
I miss my Clemence Poesy, i'll go see her nekkid video!
*slaps head*
Anyway, i thought i'd put up more people on my side of pride. :)
Don't cha think it's cool?
Besides, i have the utmost respect for anybody celeb who comes
out against the odds. Good job to them!

Imma gonna personalize Muh side of pride. :)
We need a whole lot of lovin'
before i, lovin'-less Gwen, goes to KL.

Hello,
Had muh orals. Was ok.
update later.
selling stuff on ebay. ;)

<3 Clemence Poesy

I feel so dumb. I only watched Harry Potter this week. People watched it, LAST YEAR!
My gosh, i'm so fucking slow. and i can't stand how people swoon over Cedric Diggory. His face is FLAT. it's like a bloody square shaped face and his features are FLAT. It's so annoying.
I think Fleur Delacour is hot! ( maybe it's cos i'm biased towards the females )
Anyway, i decided to put Clemence Poesy onto the side of pride! ok, i came up with that. HAHA. anyway, since i like her. I decided to put her. She's cute with brown hair. she looks snobby with blonde ( but i like it still! ). and she's got a great set of tits. ;) Yummy.
shit, that was gross.
But yeah. I saw a video of her baring her tits! It was for some French show. And they were talking in French so i have no frigging idea what the hell they were talking bout but i know she was bouncing her tits and fingering herself. OOH! exciting! :D
Omg, that's really gross.
Alright, imma off.
I leave behind for ya'll the Hot video. Now... GO DROOL!

http://www.break.com/movies_nsfw/clemencepoesy.html
( fuck it, since i can't put the embedded player. Just click on the link. watch la, dont make me feel like a retard. ahah )

Enjoy my slut friends! :D
Eh, i don't like the tits la. You all think i'm so horny. But i'm not!
I like her French. She's cute!

Failure to comply

I need to buy the The OC mixes!
The best songs in the world man!
It's like 5 mixes ah! I hope i go malaysia can find.
The disc are so good! I'm so obsessed with The OC.
I'm obsessed with other people too!

I want The Czech republic to win.
I'm annoyed with David Doff.
It's so fucking bad. I have one at home.
I needa get rid of it. How!?!?

i love The Hemingway Solution.

Swoon over.

Today, was a fun day.
Hung out with Liwei and some other random people.
Saw Joanne and Puiyee so we went to play some pool.
Went to Cine with Liwei to walk around then went off.
Saw Kenny and Maryanne. Wenta say hi.
Ended up going home with Maryanne.
Instead of going home.
Went to her house, ate popiah and hokkien mee.
Her relatives were there, so embarassing. :(
Then they were saying prayers.
They all laugh at me. :(

Meeting Mabel and Liwei for dinner tomorrow.
Don't know what's the plans. Aiii aiii sigh sigh.

I cannot sleep. I cannot sleep. I cannot sleep.
I cannot sleep. I cannot sleep. I cannot sleep.
I cannot sleep. I cannot sleep. I cannot sleep.
I cannot sleep. I cannot sleep. I cannot sleep.
I cannot sleep. I cannot sleep. I cannot sleep.
I cannot sleep. I cannot sleep. I cannot sleep.
I cannot sleep. I cannot sleep. I cannot sleep.
I cannot sleep. I cannot sleep. I cannot sleep.
I cannot sleep. I cannot sleep. I cannot sleep.
I cannot sleep. I cannot sleep. I cannot sleep.

I cannot fugging sleep. I'm excited tomorrow cos i'm going out with _.
& peter crouch is ike a bloody bamboo stick. I like England though.

<3

she's so uber cute!
I was watching that harry potter show. She's so cute! :D
Yes, i chose this picture cos i was surfing that site.
Hmmm.. she's really cute. Reminds me of Cheryl Anne Tan.
Btw, i forgot to mention her name. Her name is Clemence Poesy.
I can't do the special 'e' things. So, yup. :D

Oh shat.
http://smokingsides.com
interesting, to me.

Anyway, dXo last night. Kena bounced out. Then Ravinder brought me in, so heng. Mabel and me were being retards. We kept checking people out! She kept checking, i stuck to 2. :D Adeline and Samantha! ( Pretty Samantha ) Yeah, they dance until sooo hot. HAHA. yup, Then Mabel, Fangzi, Sam came back to my place. Ailin's place housed 9 people in her room. Can you frigging imagine!? So yeah, me mabel and fz. decided to drink when we got back. We drank a lot. they said i went ballistic. but i beg to differ.

Alright, I'm gonna dye my hair again later.
I'm gonna buy _.
I think. I'm not even sure where to get it.

I need to get a schedule of Anastasia Myskina's commitments.
I need to like "follow" her. I just don't want to see a player of
her calibre go to waste like that. It's gonna be sad. I hope
she gets to Madrid then hopefully i could go there and shout,
DAVAI NASTYA!
tennis is never gonna be the same without her. :(

One, you're like a dream come true.
Two, Just want to be with you.
Three, Cos it's plain to see that you're the only one for me.

One, you're like a dream come true.
Two, Just want to be with you.
Three, Cos it's plain to see that you're the only one for me.

Make love to me, Alex.

I saw Emilie Loit! :D
I saw Anastasia Myskina!
I saw Daniela Hantuchova!
I saw Svetlana Kuznetsova!

I saw Emilie Loit hit herself, I guess she missed a shot. I miss Emi, haven't heard of her in a long time.. Anastasia Myskina was like, talking to herself when she missed a shot against JHH. Daniela was just give a cheeky smile. And Sveta when she beat Vaidisova and when she got the plate for being a runner up for RG.

Man, RG is over already. I'm so sad. I dont think i'll post a lot at Wtaworld cos it's gone. Sigh.
I <3 tennis. NAH. i <3 the hot hot players!

I heart O.C. you horny freaks. Remember Alex. Yeah. ;)

I <3 DANIELA HANTUCHOVA!
I <3 ANASTASIA MYSKINA!
I <3 SVETLANA KUZNETSOVA!

shit, needa put sveta's photo. ehehe.
I'm finding lots of nastya, Sveta and Danka
photos. Wish me luck!

Oh man. Sveta lost. I think Sveta's lesbian. I just get the vibes. Plus, Martina Navratilova likes to partner her. Plus Amelie Mauresmo. Ahya, lesbians sure wanna stick with each other mah. Ugh. So sad la. I like Sveta a lot la. :(

I begged you not to go, I begged you. I pleaded. I claimed you as my only hope.

Rah rah, mwahaha!

I <3 emo songs. I wanna cry. Cryyyy!

I feel very selfish. Everyone else likes her too. :( I liked even before you smogheads decided to watch the Roland Garros. Man, i'm obsessed again. Here comes the pain.


Oh Sveta honey, You can crush me anytime with those thighs. ;)

My secret Fetish.

I tell you man! I totally crush Natalia Goncharova and Yulia Koltunova. They are like sooooo cool! I was watching diving. And i know they were a couple already. Then they were like diving. then they like won the gold medal. Then Natalia got into the sauna by the side of the pool. i guess the sauna's there to keep warm. Then Yulia also got in and gave Natalia a kiss! OOOOMPH!! They won the gold medal. ahya. so cool la!

Hi ho and the merry mo's!

I have sucha a big album of photos on tennis alone it's annoying my laptop doesnt show it on like thumbnail mode. How weird. I like to see these photos. Turns me on. AHAHA.

Had sort of fun today. ate steamboat went to butter factory in t-shirt shorts and slippers. hung around. went to starbucks with fangzi.
She's such an ugly hoe. But i have no idea why i love her. Yuckzxz so gross.

Maybe you should drink less coffee.

I'm observing Mauresmo's tits. It's small.
Vaidisova's is big.
Loit's is, BIG.

KANINA AH CHEEBYE, FUCK YOU!

Hello, I just want to say that this blog post title is not referring to someone. But it's more of referring to things that happened.

Good day people! I woke up really early, like 7.45am. Weird cos it's a saturday. But yeah, i went to OLGC in the morning lor. So yup. Yeah, i trained a bit. Partnered Priscilla to play a doubles. We were not bad. She's a really dao girl. She's super cold/cool. Yup, i wanna be cool like her!
She's super skinny la. Mr Lee asked her what she eats. She said like, half a cup of Milo and 30cents Chee Cheong Fun. Hahah. She's like skinny la. She's damn cool la. I don't know how to explain online. Must see then you will know...

Had weekimwee in the afternoon.
I'm quite a sore loser la. I lost then i very pekchek. so yeap. HAHA. Then i linejudge the commonwealth and st margs game. Then i accidentally clapped cos the st mar girl hit in. then the commonwealth girl kept staring and diao-ing. I was damn pekchek la. so yeah

I have no idea what to say la. i dont want to talk anymore.

Shoot, shag, marry.

Shoot, Rafael Nadal! xD




















Shag, Dani Hantuchova! :D




















Marry, Anastasia Myskina. :D

HAHA!
These really are my top 3. :D

Yeah, Smth like that.
I have many other i want to shag and marry.
But for shoot, It's really just Nadal now.
Retarded crazy groaner-moaner.

Man, i Played like at least 10 really power packed matches. I'm super tired.
I'm tired. Ugh, tomorrow got match. Sigh... I wanted to say smth, but i forgot.
If i remember, i'll blog later.

I won't carry you down.

Knew the signs
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused,My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be

FUCK, I'M BEAUTIFUL IN EVERY FUCKING WAY.
SO, FUCK YOU!

Man, i just realized i have a gramatical error with that the Rafa Nadal thing. It's supposed to be has not have

I think it is really sad how we fail to notice what goes on in our surroundings when we get caught up in other things which sometimes, doesn't even deserve the priority we give it.
We are always taking for granted things that we always had. When it goes, we all cry about it feeling the remorse.
Sometime it's just easier to take everything in consideration rather than doing what you please at the moment. All actions will have results. Results vary.